Fear of Failure

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…i was looking at the pictures  of one of our old friend’s wedding, complete attendance ang mga friends w/ matching barong to the guys and formal outfits for the girls… you know what really hurts me? we are not invited… kahit sana wla ng invitation, kahit sana pasabe nlng, may nakaalala man lang kahit sana isa sa kanila… well, i was feeling this feeling for quite long time na, that me and my boyfriend do not belong na to their circle of friends.  The old moments that we thought we will never be apart no matter what… biglang nawala. Same scenario when we accidentally saw them waiting for the other tropa sa gateway cubao for a get together sa isang haus ng aming friend that we usually pinagdadausan ng mga get together before, so parang napasabit (what a term?!) lang kami at napilitan na isama nlng kmi. sobrang excited akong makasama ulet sila but that night really not turned out the way i was expecting it to happen, may isang old friend na masakit magsalita, sana sinabe nlng na diretso that they don’t want us to be there… as in OP talaga, medyo ok pa ung hindi ka-blockmate kinakausap kami, parang strangers kami sa tropa, i cried tlaga pero d ko pinakita so nagyaya nlng akong umuwi agad … i really don’t know what we did wrong to them, i don’t know where the gap began, nakakaiyak isipin na kami ay forgotten friends… i miss the old days … so ngaun, parang talgang d na kmi mag-eexpect na ma-invite kami sa mga lakad nila para naman d nakakasama ng loob… kung maalala kami pasalamat nlng.. baka kasi lumabas na pinagsisiksikan namin sarili namin sa kanila then ayaw na din talaga kaming makasama…

don’t worry…  all important events in my life especially in my wedding, invited parin kayo lahat… d ko kayo syempre makakalimutan…